So I got up at like one this afternoon and sat around with nothing to do feeling useless like every day and then Jason and I went and cleaned out his grandmothers travel trailor. Then I cleaned our room and decided to go ahead and re-arrange the room so it wasn't so cluttered. So now it's eleven pm and I just finished....the room looks tons better now that it's all clean and purdy...makes me feel better. And having something to do today made me feel productive and not so lousy...
I missed the trip to freddy-burg with my family...wasn't sure if they were going and then I got a voice mail telling me they were leaving so I missed out...makes me sad but I don't have the money for gas to get there anyway. Pretty pathetic. BUT I did get a job with a promotional company based in Austin so I will get work with them here and there. I have a gig next saturday just dressin cute and hangin out with a bunch of models at partie's takin pictures with people so that could be ok. It pay's 16 bucks an hour so hopefully I will get to work with them a bunch...and I am getting my deposite back from my apartment so that will be something too...the promotional job doesn't give checks for like 30 days after the gig but then I guess it will be like christmas...random checks in the mail here and there never hurt MY feelings.
I am gonna go visit Cooper in Austin sometime this next week to meet up with with some modeling/singer agent guy - maybe that will be cool.
Guess my day was really uneventfull...didn't make it to Tony's funeral obviously which makes me sad, but I think we made peace the last time I saw him. I am really happy I did too...hadn't seen him since I found out he was sick and I was driving in from Austin and was in his area_I got this really odd feeling that made me have to find him. I wasn't even sure where he lived I just knew he owned some houses in the area so I drove around for a while and sure enough I came around a corner and saw his wife Darlene outside their house. It was a good visit and I am happy I got to see him....it was a kind of goodbye.
Even though I slept most of my day away I am really tired...probably cause I am sad....and never have anything to do but waste time on the enternet...I'm good at that... Thanks to myspace and stuff. I may have a shoot in Angelo this coming weekend so hopefully I will get to see everyone. I miss you all so much...
oh I found out my daddy is gonna have to have surgery on his mouth...bone graph or something so please keep him in your thoughts as well. I miss my daddy very much and never get to see him...don't really know his new family at all.....guess he is happy where he is in his life though so that is all that matters. He is going to school to be a minister and I couldn't be more proud of him....