I just got an e-mail from my mommy....made me cry. It's weird when you realize you miss someone so much... I guess in a way I took her always being around for granit and now she isn't and I miss her. My mother and I went through some really hard times and I think they just made us stronger as mother and daughter. I have so much respect for her as a person and as a wife and mother. She is a fighter and I like to think that I get some of my strength from her in that area...we don't give up easily. I just have this ache in my heart to hug her....I feel silly sitting here writing while I cry but I can't help it. Don't get me wrong I am not in a bad place and I am happy and with people that care about me and everything about my current situation is good, I just miss my mommy and it makes me feel like a little girl. There is a comfort that only a mother can give....I want it right now and I am not sure why. I wish I had some pictures of my mom but the only ones I have are silly ones from my 22nd birthday.She is probably gonna get mad about that picture....but it's the only one I have! Maybe one of these days she will let Jason take some nice pictures of she and I together and I can hang them up in my room. I think about her all the time....that one song comes on the radio all the time and reminds me of her..."Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what ya got till it's gone...they build a paradice and put up a parkin' lot".....somethin like that. But she used to listen to the one by Amy Grant when I was little and then that guy re-made it at it's always on the radio....reminds me of when she and eric came to texas and fixed my life. I also made rice and gravy (also known to veronica and becca as cow pattys) last night for everyone here and I couldn't help but think of mom the whole time I cooked it. It's like I am drawn to her right now big time...I want to come home to visit so bad, but I can't right now....MISS YOU MOMMY!
OK! I had such a fun time last night with Jason and his sister Jessica. We had a few drinks and sat at the kitchen table and played a game with dominoes called Mexican Train. It's a really fun game and I can't wait to show MeMe...she loves dominoe games. But we just stayed up late playing games, telling stories and laughing. I had a lot of fun. Then I came to the room and passed out. hehe I am not much of a drinker now days, which is a good thing.
I have an interview with some company in San Marcos at 4:15 today. They are going to test me on how fast I can type and how well I can spell...I know I am good at one of the two. hahahaha. They will let me know if I get the job on the spot or not. I really want this job, I know its barley above minimum wage but I have to start bringin' in some money somehow and I dont care....I will just have to put more hours in and that is fine with me.
I applied at chili's with Jason and that place is completely silly about their hiring process. Jason and I go in there and fill out a 4 page application and disclosures and then sit for over an hour to be interviewed only to be told that she has to check our references. If our references check out ok we have to come back in for a test which takes another hour and they have to be sent off to see if we are trustworthy and consistant and blah blah blah, then we would have to come in for ANOTHER interview at which point I would assume you wold find out if you have the job or not. But that is so stupid for a minimum wage job. I am honest and can carry food to people....common.....so I doubt I will be working at Chili's....It's too far to keep driving back and forth to just for stupid things at chili's. I dunno maybe I just haven't had to apply anywhere in a while and it has all changed.
I have started reading a book recommended by Jason, called the Historian. If you like hostory and stuff like that you should read it. I am only in the first or second chapter but it is very interesting and I believe it is based on a true story. Daddy Eric would really like it and I am not sure how much my Daddy Ron reads but he would also like it because it is about Vampires. Now I am not sure how deeply the Vampires are involed in the book as a whole as I haven't read that much yet but I will keep ya posted. I also plan to keep reading that photography book by Ansel Adams, but I haven't picked it up in a few weeks....hmmmm....wonder where it is.
Not many pictures today....I will probably write more later....but right now I think I will take a nap.