Today was moms birthday and Jason and I tried to make it really special for her... she deserves it and we were really happy to make it happen for her. We ate at Bonzi Garden and the cook didn't even do any of the fancy tricks or anything... made me sad but at least it wasn't infront of eric cause i want him to get the full show when he sees it, he hasn't eaten there yet.
I have a definite baby bump now... well at least I know its a baby bump anyway. I show it to people and they all act like they can't tell anything has changed lol it's not like I am gonna get freaked out that "OH MY GOD IM PREGNANT?!?!?!" I know. Would be nice to get through the looking fat phase and into the looking pregnant phase though. Still trying to choke down the whole idea of having a human growing inside of me and becoming a mom... sometimes it feels like all my hopes and dreams are finished now.... like my life has come to a stand still. I'm scared and feel like everyone expects me to be this glowing happy person that has already stuffed an entire closet full of baby clothes, but I haven't bought anything yet.... haven't even started to clean the room out that will be the nursery yet.
But I have been babysitting my friend Brandy's daughter and I think she is wearing me down. She is 7 weeks old and so sweet...makes me want to see what mine will come out like lol. Im watching her again tomorrow.



those pictures were taken during fashion week, which was the night before I found out I was preggers lol. So one day I will be able to tell my baby that he/she walked down the red carpet with me in Austins biggest fashion show ever. I already look at the pictures and think "my god my waist was soooo tiny!" lol
I will write a blog about fashion week once I download the pictures from my camera... I have been being VERY lazy lol