I have come to the realization that I really don't have any friends... it's been a slow process leading up to this moment but now it has slapped me in the face. Blame it on school, work, the band, photography... whichever you like but I never have anyone wanting to hang out with me unless I happen upon them when the are already out and about in which case I guess they feel obligated to invite me. Which sucks. Makes someone really think about them self. I mean I do have a few good friends that call all the time and hang out even though I have a difficult schedule but the number of them is dwindling and I really love them. But they are all guys and sometimes it's nice to hang out with a fellow female... must get over that quick.
I wear my feeling on my sleeves and really shouldn't... I know this but still can't help myself. I wish I was the strong person that didn't care but I bet those people care even more than me. They just get mad at watch murder mystery movies and eat far too much ice cream. Maybe this is all normal and now that I am getting older this is how things shall be from now on. Who knows.... Maybe I should branch out of my comfort zone and start hanging out with all the people that want to hang out with me but I haven't ever even attempted to. Hmmmm.... there is some positive thinking.
LET'S DO IT!