"more than anything, more than life...." Happiness.... what is it really? Will one ever be completely happy EVER? I doubt it seriously. As a child I remember thinking how wonderful adults had it, they could do what they wanted, when they wanted..... it's not wonderful. It's an odd thing to accidentally see how miserable you are.... just wake up one day and look in the mirror and not recognize who you are anymore. It's even worse for someone close to call you out on it. However the worst part is that you have absolutely no clue why you're unhappy, no clue how to fix it but your terrified of making a wrong choice and making the situation worse.... Could be San Angelo, could be not being able to use all my talents, could be from working at the same place for 4 years, could be my boyfriend... I just want to be happy..... I would even settle... something I said I would never do... I would like to be at lease ignorantly happy with my life, but im not.
It's not so easy lovin' me
It gets so complicated
all the things you gotta be
everything is changin
but your the truth
i'm amazed by all your patience
all the things i put you through
when im about to fall
somehow your always waiting
your open arms to catch me
your gonna save me from myself
my love is tainted by your touch
other guys have shown me aces
but you got that royal flush
i know its crazy everyday
well tomorrow may be shaky
but you never turn away
don't ask me why im crying
cause when i start to crumble
you know how to keep me smilin
you always save me from myself
I know its hard
but you've broken all my walls
you've been my strength, so strong
and dont ask me why i love you
it's obviouse your tenderness to make me
a better woman to myself
your gonna save me from myself