So.... until I have Mr.Bailey wanting to take some fantastic pictures of my growing tummy you're stuck with me trying to take pictures of myself in the mirror lol which isn't always good and they never seem to be in focus hahaha
But here is my belly.... enjoy

And here is little girlies latest photoshoot

mom and I agree that her head shape looks a lot like casper the friendly ghost's lol but it's crazy you can see her ears and arm and leg bones and everything... pretty neat
Next is her skeletor face

And the keep no secrets shots where we see she is a little girl


And then my personal favorite... her little foot... cutest thing EVER

Oh yea oh yea .. these were taken on baby Jane when I was just about 18 weeks along and now I am 22 weeks so she has had a whole month to grow! I wonder if I get new pictures at my next appointment.... and the my belly shot was taken all of 10 minutes ago hahaha

OK below are some ideas for my baby room theme... since there aren't very many reference images available for exactly what I am looking for these are the closest I could find and shouldn't be taken as a literal translation of exactly what is in my mind at all lol. I am looking for a good medium between a girly princess room and an owl themed room... and the colors are (for a lack of a better description) sherbert colored... They aren't pale like pastels but they are not as bright as Lisa Frank colors.. and now that I have probably confused you I will bring on the reference images I was able to find that I think are cute.













Dad- It would be REALLY REALLY awesome if you took these ideas and mixed them in with the Lisa Frank theme I also liked... paint a semi realistic owl with all kinds of jewelery on and maybe a terara or something... and if you could paint it big enough I would love to have that as a center piece for the room... maybe the owl could be in an ornamented tree- I just want color! I love color and feel it's really important for the baby to have color around to stimulate her mind when she is little...
Now I am giong to post some of the maternity pictures I took of Sariah- she has a few more weeks left until Bishop is born- he is due on dec 8th but I think she will be induced early. These were taken about a week ago
















AND.... me being an idiot in my stretchy pants lol

I hate feeling like I'm handcuffed and falling deeper and deeper towards the bottom of a pool... I don't want to stop fighting the water that wants to flood into my dry lungs but eventually I let it and I don't resist the movement of the water anymore... I move with it. I'm the same temperature as the water and the same color as the water.. It's made me something Im not, dead. I fight for things and love more than anything and want nothing but good things for people.... I want to be trully happy and I don't think thats going to happen. I can get pretty close but I am coming to realize that no matter how many promises someone makes you and how many times they look you in the eyes and tell you they understand what your talking about... they will let me down. In the end it's only me. Now me and my baby and I have to decide if I'm going to give up and move with the water or if I wont settle and keep fighting but ruin all of the good things I do have in the process. Really, in the end I lose both ways... really I've already lost and I haven't let it sink in all the way yet. I know I am pregnant but all of this can't be just hormones. Some of it-sure- but not all of it. I don't want to end up unhappy and alone because I wouldn't settle... but I hate having to chose between the two. Im screwed. The sad part is that I have been trying so hard to do everything I can to show how much I want everything to be ok. EVERYTHING. I don't know how much longer I can without exploding... My baby will be happy and taken care of. Life isn't about me anymore... I can't be selfish anymore... but some people don't see their life that way. I could just scream... but I will just cry myself to sleep... I just want what I can't have. haha funny how karma can wait so long to come creeping up on you to pay you back for a life of small infringments.

So Sariah's baby shower was today and I'm so happy that it's all over haha. Im so sleepy and ready for a week to finish unpacking and making my home a home. I'm happy I could give Sariah the shower that she needed and deserved and it was fun. Below is a picture of the Seuss things that I made for her.

The food table at the baby shower









And below is a picture of my little mr. looking more and more like a panda bear every day

So I am learning to practice patience and things of that nature... I'm trying the tactic of making him happier than myself because he deserves it. Seriously if I think about it I don't really DO anything lol. He works all the time and I stay home feeling sick or whatever and he never complains... he is an amazing person and I am trying my hardest to show him everyday that I see it and appriciate him.
He made me breakfast in bed this morning... sweetest thing EVER! I ate half of it and then got sick hahaha but that was still the sweetest thing in the whole world. I love him very much.
I have been spending tons of time with my mom and have been having so much fun doing it. Yesterday we cleared out the babies room (almost completely) and went to the cloth store and bought some cool tapestry material and she showed me how to re-upholster my dining room chairs which look fantastic! Then we went to the grocery store and walked around forever... I don't see any of my friends anymore now that I don't go to the bar and stay out all hours of the night so it's so nice hanging out with someone that i know loves hanging out with me and she isn't bored around me. She is making me homemade stew tonight which I have been seriously craving and she hasn't made it in like 10 years at least. I'm REALLY excited about the stew... then I assume we will hang out tonight, not sure what Jason wants to do- maybe we can grab some beer and wine and play board games! (I have been craving ODoules lol) and if J doesn't wanna hang out mom hasn't seen the Notebook (which if you haven't ever seen it let me tell you what- it will kick your ass if you even have the remnants of a heart... really really great emotional total chick flick).
Got the kitchen set up yesterday before mom got her so now really the only thing left to do is organize the living room! Jason wants to get a TV for the living room, we'll see. OH! Jason helped me make some awesome canvases the other night at moms (told you i have been over there a lot) and I have one more to put together before I can gesso them but I have some awesome ideas as to what I want to paint on them. It's a 3 piece set of canvas and I am going to hang them above our bed and desks in the room.. I think it will give the room a really nice modern/clean look. Probably will just use 3 colors at the most.
Ok I have rambled enough...