I hate it when I try and accomplish nothing.
I hate when someone I trust lets me fall.
I hate being missunderstood
I hate losing a "battle"
Right this moment....I guess I am just angry. I am sitting here in the dark of my own living room typing and all I can think about is a few things that have been seperatley bothering me that seem to have ganged up together today. I am not liked by someone that never even gave me a real chance to show them who I was. The fact that my best friend is thousands of miles away just hit me, I have once again slept half of my day away, I work at the same dead end job that I have for almost 4 years, I'm not in college.....I could go on forever. These are little things that always bother me but they usually choose to do so seperatley...not today.
People usually love me....but not this one. No matter what I do this he/she will never like me, but I feel the need to change his/her mind even though the damage is done and I know they will never trust that I am a good person. That eats at me the most....because I can fly to San Francisco to see my best friend, I can go back to college and I can get a better job, but I can't make someone like me. I guess I am at a loss....... don't know what to say .......... its a dull dark day outside so maybe that's why I am feeling so gloomy.