Cut like 6 inches of my hair of yesterday....

So it's my first day off in a while and I am excited that I actually have time to do something. However I can't really decide what to do...My friend Calina should be over in a little while to have a play day for our dogs...hopefully they will love each other. Her dog is half pom and corgy so he is about twice febe's size, but she loves most dogs. Should be nice for her to have someone to play wtih.
Work was soooooooooooooooooooo boring last night. Natalie worked so that was a pluss cause I love her, but other than that I wanted to find a small dark corner to hid in b-a-d. Everyone was singing really slow songs like Hotel California and Piano Man, which aren't bad songs at all but when you have worked at a karaoke place for 4 to 6 years you get tired of hearing the same person sing an 8 minute song that they really have no buiness singing. Same goes for anything from Grease....apparently the Angelo Civic Theatre is doing Grease this summer and I was asked to audition, but I don't think I could do it. I would love love love to be in a play again but can't be in that one. Songs from Grease literally make me angry inside..... Imagine working at a karaoke bar, ok? Anyone that cant really sing is gonna sing one of these songs...
1. I love rock and roll
2. Anything from Grease
3. Alanis Morsette
4. Friends in low places
5. Evenescence (yes, everyone tries to sing it)
6. Love shack
7. American Pie
8. Bohemian Rhapsody
9. Goodbye Earl
10. Grandpa
11. I got you babe
12. Margaritaville
13. My ding-a-ling (at least its funny)
14. Sweet Dreams (Are Made Of This)
15. You never called me by my name
Ok if someone gets up and sings one of those I want to jump from a tall building......and other than those songs unless you make an ass of yourself or your amazing I really don't hear anything. I have learned to completely tune you out. It happens when you hear 50 to 100 "interesting" singers a night.
Sorry about the rant....just had to get that out there.
Another thing is the American Idol question....this is how it goes...I finish singing and walk around gathering gunk off of tables and I hear "Hey! Why don't you try out for American Idol?!?!" Like they are the first person to come up with that thought...American Idol is a bunch of crap. It's really fun to watch on t.v. but unless your a hairy man wearing a thong and scooting around on a skateboard your chances of actually making it on that show are slim to none. Depending on however many thousands of people audition depicts how many people they will choose from that town. Like when I auditioned in Austin....They picked one an hour......if you are amazing and they already picked someone your up a creek. Pluss they don't pick really amazing singers because they have no room to improve on the show...but I think I will set up a Send me to American Idol jar so that everyone will stop talking about it and they can finance my next audition where I won't get chosen....and if I do then I guess the joke is on me.
Another thing I would like to rant about.....if you are an older man and have nothing to do but sit at a bar and hit on some poor 20 year old bartender that is stuck behind the bar so she has to talk to you? Why would you think she would go home with you? Seriously? It gets so hard to give the false smile when you get hit on the same way, by the same person for years. If your so amazing and good looking....then why did you go to the bar alone? And just incase you were wondering...."I have a boyfriend" is a key line to make you stop talking, though it never works.
So yea.....work....if I didn't work with amazing people that make me smile I think I would have done myself in a long time ago. I think I have written enough for the current moment...lol...hope you liked.
jes

I was going to paint but ended up playin on the computer too long so now I have to find something to do until l head to work. Jason is working on a photoshop trick or somthin.... well I haven't really written in a long time so maybe I should. Not that many people read this unless they are spyng (you know who you are) not you Tay. lol Taylor is the only person I know that reads this that does so to just find out whats up with my life and then throws it in my face....everyonw else is a spy so far. If your reading let me know! I like knowing that someone out there reads this and I dont just sit her typing away for no reason.
So VALENTINES DAY....very sweet...I wanted to keep it simple since we have so much going on but Jason blew it out of the water. It was very sweet. I had to work all day and he went off to "do something" and got back just as I was getting off of work. He took me home and made me sit on the couch and then 15 minutes later took me in our room where he had made a pic-nick on the floor with a million tea candles.....he had pillows layed out for me and chocolate covered strawberries and champaine...can't spell that one right. lol. So I layed on the floor and sipped my champaign and had some strawberries while he made dinner in the kitchen....it was very sweet. I got him a 2 year subscription to Vanity Fair and feel very lame for not doing something wonderfull and well thought out for him.
Work has been good....I work everyday really, this week I have Tuesday off and am really looking forward to it. It's not that bad except that I have to waitress most week nights and I don't usually do too well....better than nothing though I guess. I usually make between 4 and 20 bucks a night lol. What can ya do......
So...hmmm...nothing really amazing is going on or anything...I really just sleep a lot and work everyday and fantasize about having a real job that I get home from work at 6 everyday.....can't do it though. At least I love everyone I work with- makes it more fun. I get tired of hearing people ask why I am in San Angelo....because I didn't have a choice...lol who would choose to be here?
Well.....ok I think I am off for a little before I go to work.
If any of you haven't seen The Descent I recommend it!
xoxoxox
jeska

Images by JBailey
Concept Design by Taylor Harris
Wardrobe Design by Taylor Harris
Provided by The Carriage
Model: Me =0)
with help from Courtney Baughmen
......aren't you excited already?

Sooo I guess nothing has ACTUALLY happened since I last wrote. But the possibility of something happening happened. I was on one of my modeling sites and got a note from Jeffery Scott 1019 telling me to call him, which I did, and he wants to work with me. Please understand how talented this guy is....he has published books and is working on 2 more. He and I talked for a little over 2 hours and I think we will get along wonderfully when and if we meet. I just need to find some way to get my butt out to cali now. I have put up a few images by 1019 to show up what I mean, he shoots these girls in a studio and then creates everything you are seeing in photoshop....even down to their clothes. It's amazing and I would love to work with this guy more than anything right now. My ideal situation would be to fly to San Francisco to see Tay and then hop a flight to the OC and work with 3 photographers that I have been dying to work with and then locate Jeff and work with him- then come home. Yea that wouldn't suck.

So I have tried to write this dang blog about 34.2 times since Alicia moved and this site hasn't been treating me well...or the internet times out and then I lose everything that I have written, which is SOOOOOOOOOOOO annying. BUT I REALLY wanted to write this about my sister since she just moved so I keep trying and I really hope this times the charm. Alicia moved last Sunday....but it's where she believes she is suppost to be so who am I to say anything? She has had a rough time the past few years so the fact that she can smile again is really nice for her family. Her highschool sweetheart came and swept her off her feet (shoved everything in that mirage and it actually made it to connecticut). So now I have another excuse to travel...which I will need with Mr.Jason cause he isn't to fond of Yankee land, having lived there himself for years. Before Alicia moved I did something I didn't think I would EVER EVER EVER do....I bought a tattoo....she loves them so much and I know it would be there forever. When we were babies we couldn't say one anothers name so Alicia called me Deska and I called her seashell....so I got her a seashell...which was good because she has future plans of getting this whole ocean corral thing done on her side anyway so this was my little building block for her. I could never get a tattoo....just watching her get it made my skin crawl, but she loves it....so cudos to her I guess.I have lost my little sister and best friend within the same month....kinda feel like I am walking in circles now....not sure what to do with my time. They are both so far away...I really miss them and envy them at the same time. I wish I was following a dream of some kind...I tried once, but it didn't work out so now I am kind of trying to get my chickens all back in order before I run back out there and try again. I figure I can keep trying until I get pregnant....which I will have to be married to do.....soooooooo I have a while to go. Jason and I were just talking last night about how much money it would take to just put everything in storage and travel for like 6 months.....just doing as we please...him being a photographer and me modeling and acting and singing...that would be the best. But it would take a lot of money and courage both of which I am low on at the moment. lol so it's gonna have to wait.

Alicia and I have had a very ineresting relationship. We have loved and hated....as much as one could hate a sister, which isn't ever too bad. Then 2 years ago during the most fun summer of my life we made friends again and I am lucky enough to say that she has been one of my best friends since. I cried like a baby when she left but I know C.T. is where her heart is.
If you need her address I have it. Just send me an e-mail to ladygirljess@yahoo.com and I will send it to you if your not a creepster. lol. Not sure I should be writing her addy online so I wont
A little peice of my heart is now in New England where it belongs.... It has been so hard losing Tay and Alicia so close together but at least both of them are in a place where they needed to be. But I have been getting closer with some people here in Angelo so its ok, though they can't replace my Nay twins.