Jane Stahlschmidt passed into eternal life at 12:03 AM, 5-29-08. Her final minutes were peaceful. The pastor was here, as well as Ed, Dale (sister), and Sara (daughter).
That was just in my in-box. It made it very real to me that she is gone.... seeing her name in the in-box just sitting there looking at me....me knowing it wasn't my grandmother that wrote that e-mail and knowing that this will be the last time I see that name there.
I don't really know what to do right now so I'm writing....writing doesn't hurt as bad as talking...I just don't think it's fair...but then i'm happy for her at the same time. She was hurting. Now she's not. And I guess it's normal to feel all the regrets once someone passes away... the "I should have spent more time with her" and "I should have written more" all of those thoughts that haunt your brain. It's all normal...If anyone goes to heaven she did, that woman made me a better person, everyone she met she made a better person.
It hurts right from the middle of my neck to the bottom of my rib cage....an aching.
5/29/2008 01:00:00 PM
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