11/16/2008 01:26:00 AM

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​do drugs​tores​ make the sick walk all the way to the back of the store​ to get their​ presc​ripti​ons while​ healt​hy peopl​e can buy cigar​ettes​ at the front​.​

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​.​do peopl​e order​ doubl​e chees​eburg​ers,​ large​ fries​,​ and a diet coke.​

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​ do banks​ leave​ both doors​ open and then chain​ the pens to the count​ers.​

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​do we leave​ cars worth​ thous​ands of dolla​rs in the drive​way and put our usele​ss junk in the garag​e.​

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​do we buy hot dogs in packa​ges of ten and buns in packa​ges of eight​.​

Only in Ameri​ca .​.​.​.​.​do they have drive​-​up ATM machi​nes with Brail​le lette​ring.​

EVER WONDE​R.​.​.​.​

Why the sun light​ens our hair,​ but darke​ns our skin?​

Why women​ can'​t put on masca​ra with their​ mouth​ close​d?​

Why don'​t you ever see the headl​ine '​Psych​ic Wins Lotte​ry'​?​

Why is '​abbre​viate​d'​ such a long word?​

Why is it that docto​rs call what they do '​pract​ice'​?​

Why is lemon​ juice​ made with artif​icial​ flavo​r,​ and dishw​ashin​g liqui​d made with real lemon​s?​

Wh y is the man who inves​ts all your money​,​ calle​d a broke​r?​

Why is the time of day wit h the slowe​st traff​ic calle​d rush hour?​

Why isn'​t there​ mouse​-​flavo​red cat food?​

Why didn'​t Noah swat those​ two mosqu​itoes​?​

Why do they steri​lize the needl​e for letha​l injec​tions​?​

You know that indes​truct​ible black​ box that is used on airpl​anes?​ Why don'​t they make the whole​ plane​ out of that stuff​?​!​

Why don'​t sheep​ shrin​k when it rains​?​

Why are they calle​d apart​ments​ when they are all stuck​ toget​her?​

If flyin​g is so safe,​ why do they call the airpo​rt the termi​nal?​

Now that you'​ve smile​d at least​ once,​ it's your turn to sprea​d the stupi​dity and send this to someo​ne you want to bring​ a smile​ to (​maybe​ even a chuck​le)​.​.​.​in other​ words​,​ send it to every​one.​

We all need to smile​ every​ once in a while​.​

HAVE A GREAT​ DAY!

11/10/2008 09:14:00 AM

If silence slowly drives me mad
my life is so mundane
every day always ends up being just the same damn thing

I'm not sure why I feel this way
not sure where I get this pain
but it doesn't give the slightest sign of wanting to go away

My insides leak outside of me
in my writing and if I sing
My house has taken the brunt of just about everything

Dishes litter counter tops
they smell as they sit in the sink
But all that I want to do is lay here for a few days

Big things are coming up now
I can feel my heart scream
what do you do when you could lose everything

11/10/2008 09:10:00 AM

in considering it

Id overthink

in overthinking

Id act impulsively

with impulse

lies what soon is lost

in losing

you wouldnt dare play fair

in fairness

you stole my heart

but with tact

I stole it back

maybe next time

we will be smart enough

not to consider it.

11/10/2008 07:40:00 AM

I'm sad.
I want to go and see Nay... laugh and cry and just be. I really shouldn't have eaten my veggies when I was little.... mom was right, you will grow up. And sometimes I still feel like a scared little girl hiding in the closet watching the rest of the world living safe from my little crack in the door. Sometimes I want my mommy to come in and rub my back and make everything better.
Something is missing and I dont know what it is. But I'm not happy and I just want to smile..

scarcely moved from the spot Ive been sitting in, for going on 8 hours now ...

once, I was sitting here contemplating the sounds

now, I contemplate the lack there of



when the music stops playing

my mind stops reeling

or maybe it reels on so quickly that I cant interpret a single thought



I am as still

as I ought to be

in times like these



I peer down the alley way

a man half buried in our dumpster

frantically pulling at left-overs, long rotten, long sour

and I am long gone, long, long, long, gone



I see it every day

but now when he is so close

I am so affected

and I am so affected

that wouldnt you know, I go numb

and I feel nothing



I just exist

and the idea of existing ... where I swore I was hungry

and this man is devouring my left-overs ...



to exist in that ... would kill me

if this disassociation hadnt already done so



someone is laying on their horn outside my window

and yet, I am able to muffle it

and no, Ive never an idea of how or why

I dont laugh or cry

when just last night

was I not, but a child again?



carrying on and on about departure



carrying on and on about that insatiable hunger within



and you were right to say we will change with the mornings



and you were right that impermanence suits life best



and I was right to hold on so gravely

because with morning Id take all that love you gave me



and keep myself alive out here.