I have come to the realization that I really don't have any friends... it's been a slow process leading up to this moment but now it has slapped me in the face. Blame it on school, work, the band, photography... whichever you like but I never have anyone wanting to hang out with me unless I happen upon them when the are already out and about in which case I guess they feel obligated to invite me. Which sucks. Makes someone really think about them self. I mean I do have a few good friends that call all the time and hang out even though I have a difficult schedule but the number of them is dwindling and I really love them. But they are all guys and sometimes it's nice to hang out with a fellow female... must get over that quick.
I wear my feeling on my sleeves and really shouldn't... I know this but still can't help myself. I wish I was the strong person that didn't care but I bet those people care even more than me. They just get mad at watch murder mystery movies and eat far too much ice cream. Maybe this is all normal and now that I am getting older this is how things shall be from now on. Who knows.... Maybe I should branch out of my comfort zone and start hanging out with all the people that want to hang out with me but I haven't ever even attempted to. Hmmmm.... there is some positive thinking.
LET'S DO IT!
4/14/2009 01:04:00 PM
April 16, 2009 at 6:59 PM �
baby, you have plenty of friends. maybe many of them think you are always unavailable. i dunno. you know how it is when you work at a bar. those are your friends and when you see them at the bar, that's kinda like hanging out... even though it's not really. i miss you a lot and i wish we could hang out 24/7/365 like old times. please come see me or somethin'! love you nay
April 22, 2009 at 5:40 AM �
someone once told me that if you can
count higher than one when you pass your life was blessed. You always tell me how busy you are, and truthfully , you are. You have to make the time for this to happen and that means something will have to be sacrificed to do just that. What do you want to sacrifice and who do you want to sacrifice? You can be anything or anyone you want to be you just have to have that confidence to walk through the door and become what you want. You are strong. Be that person. I believe in you dad e