I just took that picture of me and Febe....that's our new "FARM" look....no makup except whats left over from the last time you put some on and nobody even cares if you wash your hair or not.... kinda relaxing actually....There is nobody out here but us... nobody to impress... so... I don't try anymore... Jason is stuck with me weather I am ugly or not so HA! hmmm.... apparently my nose ring decided to jump out at some point within the last few days....so I just spent 15 minutes trying to get another ring in the hole.... it hurt soooo bad... almost gave up and then POP it was pierced again.... not sure why I like it so much but I do.... gives my face a little exctra "sParKLe"
That's Jason right now working on photoshop....he didn't want me to take a picture so naturally I HAD to take one.... bet he wants to trade me in. hehehehe. I always tell him that I am just a pup and he need's to play with me. hehe OH! Febe learned how to shake....though she learned lay down and shake to close together so she gets them mixed up...but she is getting it all sorted out. It's so cute... she holds her little paw up and waits for you to shake with her. LOVE IT! She is sooooo smart! I just took that picture... she looks like a little white pig... hehehehehe...I will finish writing later... gonna help Jason make lunch.
OK now its 10pm and we are back on the computers where we spend most of our time....get's old sometimes but what else do we have to do? We both make the majority of our money from booking work online so here we sit minute after minute searching the web...myspace, craigs list, ModelMayhem, OneModelPlace....and many more..... work has been hard to come by lately which hurts us both a lot.... sometimes it's hard to keep your head up.
I found out today that one of my good friend's Courtney (not Bartlett) is prego with her secon baby and is soooo excited! I am really happy for her.... she and her husband want to have 4 kids... that's 36 months of her whole life pregnant...that's like 3 years! OMG! I DONT THINK I COULD DO THAT! My mom was pregnant for a total of 45 months! She was almost prego for 4 YEARS! HA I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT! GEEZ! Im not sure about having kids... part of me wants to and part of me wants to never even think about it.... I think the never even think about it part is winning so far. lol. When Karen had Grace it kinda helped me though...I got to help her in the delivery room and saw Grace be born...it wasn't as horrible as I thought it would be. I mean it's not something I would wake up in the morning and say "Hey I think I will give birth today," but the hurt looked like it went right away once that baby was in her arms.I'm sure that if I had to I would be a good mom, but I don't wanna have to do anything like that. I want to be ready and want it and decide to do it when it happens... I want to be able to give my baby an amazing life....they grow sooo fast. Grace holds a special place with me....Karen gave me such an amazing gift by letting me watch her come into the world...she is getting so big! I wish I was closer so I could watch her grow. Karen sends me pictures all the time though...but for now Febe is enough for me..and Jason and I are gonna have some whiiiiiiite babies...with red hair and freckles....ugh poor things.....and Jason has made it 34 years without getting married and having babies so I doubt he is in any kind of a hurry to start now. Pluss I have tons of cute pictures of Febe when she was a babyand I can look forward to her birthdays and stuff too.....which her 1st birthday is OCTOBER 16TH!!!! I can't wait!and getting married at this point isn't even an option so I try not to think about it much. I am sure you all know that I would like to get married, but one day it will happen and it will be forever and there will be a big dress and cake and crying family and yadda yadda yadda....I was foolish enough to rush into the thought of getting married to someone who shorty there after turned out to be an idiot so waiting doesn't sound like a terrible idea right now. So there are no plans for wedding cakes, babies or crying family anytime in the near future as of now....not sure how I ended up writing about this. hahaha... I tend to ramble I guess.
I hope to get ahold of one of my cloud images one of these days from stupid face Jason....I wana show off my first experience as a photographer...I think I did good...
Well I will stop wasting your time now!
Love ya lots!
to the moon and back even...
jessie