I know I already wrote once today, but I am home now so I thought I would write again as I have actually experienced my day. LOL. Work was boring....had to go over rules and things like that...took three and a half hours. The last thirty minutes we actually got to call people to try and get some surveys in...I had 3 people hang up on me and one busy line before I got someone who was willing to talk to me. They survey's are a little long so I can't help but wondering how many people I will actually get to make it to the end of the survey. But I am ready for work...it's nice to feel like you have done something with your day, even if it's making a ton of people angry by calling them at home. I am working all next week and then have the weekend off so I can make it to San Angelo to work on the movie Getting The Girl. There are a few scened we have to re-do before the film wraps. I miss Tay so much! Can't wait to see him. It will be nice to see everyone though...Will be a nice change of scenery and a pretend vacation. Jason and I hope to go to Colorado for new years....where his best friend Sean lives with his wife. I met Sean and he is a really nice and talented guy. I can definitely see why he and Jason are as close as they are....Kinda like me and Tay.
Jason and I went and heard Zack Walter and the Cronkites play last night...probably didn't spell that last part right. They are super talented and just started getting their stuff played on air. Jason does all their images for them...they will be in san angelo soon so if you can you should stop by and hear them. It really is worth it. They are amazing!
Last but not least!!! A new picture of Grace...she looks so much like Tessa...I can't wait to see her when I visit! She is growing sooo big! She will be walking and talking before I know it!
OK LOVE YOU ALL! SooooOOOOoooooOOOooooo much!

So I got a job as a receptionist person....can't seem to remember the actual title or anything but it's a little like sitel, but no dress code or anythings so it should be a nice job. I start today....from 4 to 8...wish me luck! I need this job....
Jason got a job with a company called CAVCO it's a photography job....he is going to be photographing their product...should take like 2 days or somethin. Can't remember....but yay for us both!
Jason and I took pictures with his horses yesterday...FANCY and Carah... its really hard to make them do what you want....Fancy stepped on my dress hahahaha. They just really wanted to follow Jason so they kept getting right infront of him when he was tryin to take picture. And I got smacked in the face with a tail a few times....they are really sweet. Can't wait to ride them! The last time I was on a horse was at Mo Ranch and we had to follow a guy around so it wasn't that eventfull. It was fun because I was with my family but I would like to be able to ride one wherever and however I want to- it's more fun that way. I miss riding with Derek and his horses. He doesn't have them anymore though...poor Bubba.
Well I am gonna get in the shower and get ready for my day at work...I hope there aren't more spelling tests and typing tests... I had to take all sorts of tests to get the job and I actually passed them all...even the spelling tests. I barley passed. But passing IS passing!!! And anyone who knows me knows that I can't spell worth a poop. Ok I love you all....pray for me that I make it to the place of work ok...it's 30 minutes away and I am not totally sure how to get there and back home...I will have Jason draw me a map. hehehe
OK LOVE YA TO THE MOON AND BACK!

I just got an e-mail from my mommy....made me cry. It's weird when you realize you miss someone so much... I guess in a way I took her always being around for granit and now she isn't and I miss her. My mother and I went through some really hard times and I think they just made us stronger as mother and daughter. I have so much respect for her as a person and as a wife and mother. She is a fighter and I like to think that I get some of my strength from her in that area...we don't give up easily. I just have this ache in my heart to hug her....I feel silly sitting here writing while I cry but I can't help it. Don't get me wrong I am not in a bad place and I am happy and with people that care about me and everything about my current situation is good, I just miss my mommy and it makes me feel like a little girl. There is a comfort that only a mother can give....I want it right now and I am not sure why. I wish I had some pictures of my mom but the only ones I have are silly ones from my 22nd birthday.She is probably gonna get mad about that picture....but it's the only one I have! Maybe one of these days she will let Jason take some nice pictures of she and I together and I can hang them up in my room. I think about her all the time....that one song comes on the radio all the time and reminds me of her..."Don't it always seem to go, that you don't know what ya got till it's gone...they build a paradice and put up a parkin' lot".....somethin like that. But she used to listen to the one by Amy Grant when I was little and then that guy re-made it at it's always on the radio....reminds me of when she and eric came to texas and fixed my life. I also made rice and gravy (also known to veronica and becca as cow pattys) last night for everyone here and I couldn't help but think of mom the whole time I cooked it. It's like I am drawn to her right now big time...I want to come home to visit so bad, but I can't right now....MISS YOU MOMMY!
OK! I had such a fun time last night with Jason and his sister Jessica. We had a few drinks and sat at the kitchen table and played a game with dominoes called Mexican Train. It's a really fun game and I can't wait to show MeMe...she loves dominoe games. But we just stayed up late playing games, telling stories and laughing. I had a lot of fun. Then I came to the room and passed out. hehe I am not much of a drinker now days, which is a good thing.
I have an interview with some company in San Marcos at 4:15 today. They are going to test me on how fast I can type and how well I can spell...I know I am good at one of the two. hahahaha. They will let me know if I get the job on the spot or not. I really want this job, I know its barley above minimum wage but I have to start bringin' in some money somehow and I dont care....I will just have to put more hours in and that is fine with me.
I applied at chili's with Jason and that place is completely silly about their hiring process. Jason and I go in there and fill out a 4 page application and disclosures and then sit for over an hour to be interviewed only to be told that she has to check our references. If our references check out ok we have to come back in for a test which takes another hour and they have to be sent off to see if we are trustworthy and consistant and blah blah blah, then we would have to come in for ANOTHER interview at which point I would assume you wold find out if you have the job or not. But that is so stupid for a minimum wage job. I am honest and can carry food to people....common.....so I doubt I will be working at Chili's....It's too far to keep driving back and forth to just for stupid things at chili's. I dunno maybe I just haven't had to apply anywhere in a while and it has all changed.
I have started reading a book recommended by Jason, called the Historian. If you like hostory and stuff like that you should read it. I am only in the first or second chapter but it is very interesting and I believe it is based on a true story. Daddy Eric would really like it and I am not sure how much my Daddy Ron reads but he would also like it because it is about Vampires. Now I am not sure how deeply the Vampires are involed in the book as a whole as I haven't read that much yet but I will keep ya posted. I also plan to keep reading that photography book by Ansel Adams, but I haven't picked it up in a few weeks....hmmmm....wonder where it is.
Not many pictures today....I will probably write more later....but right now I think I will take a nap.

Close my eyes to a yesterday I make the canvas clean,
Brushin strokes and creating what I never seen,
Drive a stollen car from a man that I'd like to meet,
hey hey hey yea rear-views hard to read.
hey hey hey yay please don't remember me..
Remember me.
Too cool to be foregettin his tattoo all over me,
wanna wash my self away with a bottle of whiskey,
seen myself in a window and I drive off real fast,
Wanna be that other window, whats now in the past,
Yea yea hey yea rear-views hard to read.
hey hey yay please don't remember me.
Remember me, yea yea.

That's a song by Claire Cunningham (not how sure I am as to the lyrics...I wrote them as I listened to the song...so they may be wrong) who is a local artist here in New Braunfels Texas. She and Jason are good friends and now I concider myself a friend of her's as well. Though I have not heard her sing just yet I enjoy listening to her on myspace http://www.myspace.com/clairecunningham. Claire's song Don't Remember Me inspired my last screenplay that I wrote. Right now it is still in it's 1st rough draft form, but editing will begin soon. Please listen to this song if you can and start listening around for Claire's name...she is so talented I am sure she will go far. I hope to hear her live soon!

I am once again bored out of my mind. I have an interview possiblility tomorrow in San Marcos for a cleaning Lady job...pay is ok and I bet they are flexable. They also work out of Austin and San Antonio so if we move I could continue to work for them. I am just soooOOOOOooooooOOOOoooo tired of sitting on my butt...I really have been trying to gt a job it just hasn't worked out just yet. I am gonna get one! I HAVE TO! I hate feeling useless....it's not a good feeling. At this point any job would make me happy. Even McDonalds probably though I haven't resorted to that just yet. Not sure I could flip burgers all day and have an apetite...Speaking of which I have only been eating once a day for like 2 or 3 weeks...I am scared my motabolism is gonna crap out on me when I start eating normal again.....EEEeeeekkk!
Anywho I spoke to Zack a long time last night online....poor honey...he can't seem to get over Emily and you can't really help him...I think he likes mourning her...And then Veronica called me at 2 in the morning bacause she couldn't sleep. It was a nice surprise one I realized nothing was wrong. Nout used to getting calls from her so late.. Still haven't heard back from S&S clothing so maybe I didn't get the add work after all. I really felt like it was a strong audition and interview...The guy actually wrote me saying..."I really enjoyed your interview and was very impressed with your outspoken charm and beautiful figure"-.Joseph Garza...maybe that was a kind hint as to "hey kid your not good enough!"Wish I had something to tell about....but my day hasn't been very eventfull...I got up...got online...talked to Jasons siter Jessica...played Angelina Ballerina with Jessica ans Emily (which I lost), stood on the porch and watched it rain really hard and now I am back in my room online...like everyday...bored. Jason is of outside somewhere doing ranch things...with a tractor...Oh what an exciting life I live...sometimes I wonder if I made the wrong choice when I moved...I mean I am happy here with Jason...which is ONE of the reasons I decided to move..I also decided to move because I wasn't getting anywhere closer to my dreams in San Angelo...yet here I am...stuck on a ranch with nothing to do but feel worthless...I help where I can and do what I know how to do...I try to feel like I help, but I don't. I feel lazy and pittifull...is that even how you spell that? I miss my family soooo much and my friend's...but I am here and moved...so I have to keep getting up everyday and hope that today will be different.
I haven't modeled in forever....makes me sad...I love modeling so much.. I can't paint cause none of my art stuff is here and there isn't room for me to paint here anyway. I hope that when I can get a job a can buy some yarn and start making christmas presents for people and maybe figure a way out that I can market my scarves here. I sold them at Taylor's moms shop last Christmas and did ok, but I doubt she will want to sel them again. I just want something to do..something I can create and then look at and feel and be proud of. I have never wanted to have something to do more in my life...I actually was always very content being lazy and doing nothing...but now something has changed and I don't really know why. I can't stand just sitting her wasting away...I'm bored....all the time....not miserable though so don't think that. Just bored.
Guess I will go in the kitchen and see if I can help someone with something...probably not-they rarely ever need me to do anything...sigh***

I have been thinkin about my sissy Alicia a lot latley.....I miss her a ton! She and I didn't get along for a loooooong time and then one day we just clicked at we spent the whole summer together. One of my favorite summer's to date actually. She and I haven't been getting along to well again latley and it breaks my heart. I know she ad Darby have there thing and she likes to kinda close herself into her own little world but I like to be around her and have fun. I mean I know that everyone grows up and moves on but aren't you suppost to always be close to your family? I wish her the best in the whole world.....love her to death and was so elated and surprised to hear that she was going back to college....YAY ALICIA! I am so happy she is showing ambition in her life again...I was really worried about her for a while. She and I seem to go through hard times ALL THE TIME but we handle them differently and I worry. I wish she would get back to her art, she is so talented and I want one of her peices so bad!I wonder if she and I will ever live close again, I hope so....there is soooo much here to offer her sooo much....so much art! She would love it! I know a bar called canvas and they show new artists works all the time...they even have events and have the actual artisit there painting on a stage sometimes so everyone could watch...I could see her doing that...Anyway she has just been on my mind...I thought I would have more to say but now looking at this I realize I am at a loss for words. So I will leave you with some images that have had me thinking of her.
Love you sissy

So I got up at like one this afternoon and sat around with nothing to do feeling useless like every day and then Jason and I went and cleaned out his grandmothers travel trailor. Then I cleaned our room and decided to go ahead and re-arrange the room so it wasn't so cluttered. So now it's eleven pm and I just finished....the room looks tons better now that it's all clean and purdy...makes me feel better. And having something to do today made me feel productive and not so lousy...
I missed the trip to freddy-burg with my family...wasn't sure if they were going and then I got a voice mail telling me they were leaving so I missed out...makes me sad but I don't have the money for gas to get there anyway. Pretty pathetic. BUT I did get a job with a promotional company based in Austin so I will get work with them here and there. I have a gig next saturday just dressin cute and hangin out with a bunch of models at partie's takin pictures with people so that could be ok. It pay's 16 bucks an hour so hopefully I will get to work with them a bunch...and I am getting my deposite back from my apartment so that will be something too...the promotional job doesn't give checks for like 30 days after the gig but then I guess it will be like christmas...random checks in the mail here and there never hurt MY feelings.
I am gonna go visit Cooper in Austin sometime this next week to meet up with with some modeling/singer agent guy - maybe that will be cool.
Guess my day was really uneventfull...didn't make it to Tony's funeral obviously which makes me sad, but I think we made peace the last time I saw him. I am really happy I did too...hadn't seen him since I found out he was sick and I was driving in from Austin and was in his area_I got this really odd feeling that made me have to find him. I wasn't even sure where he lived I just knew he owned some houses in the area so I drove around for a while and sure enough I came around a corner and saw his wife Darlene outside their house. It was a good visit and I am happy I got to see him....it was a kind of goodbye.
Even though I slept most of my day away I am really tired...probably cause I am sad....and never have anything to do but waste time on the enternet...I'm good at that... Thanks to myspace and stuff. I may have a shoot in Angelo this coming weekend so hopefully I will get to see everyone. I miss you all so much...
oh I found out my daddy is gonna have to have surgery on his mouth...bone graph or something so please keep him in your thoughts as well. I miss my daddy very much and never get to see him...don't really know his new family at all.....guess he is happy where he is in his life though so that is all that matters. He is going to school to be a minister and I couldn't be more proud of him....

(at bottom of page please leave memories)

Facts
Born: February 26, 1951
Place of Birth: San Angelo, Texas
Death: August 26, 2007
Place of Death: San Angelo, Texas
Occupation: Musician
Hobbies: Church Choir
Organizations: Cursillo Movement, Knights of Columbus,

Survived By
Darlene Gutierrez, Wife
Scott Peters, Jr., Son
Tricia Peters, Daughter
Rachael Wright Lacy, Daughter
Katrina Carrasco, Daughter
Eduarda "Lala" Gutierrez, Mother

Manuel Antonio "Tony" Serrano Gutierrez was born on Feburary 26, 1951 in San Angelo to Eduarda "Lala" Gutierrez, and Jilberto Gutierrez. Tony was a devoted and faithful husband to Darlene Gutierrez and loving father to Scott Peters Jr, Tricia Peters, Rachael Wright Lacy and Katrina Carrasco and loving father-in-law to Tosha Gray. He was a proud grandfather "Pa" to Jarrod Turner, Javen Peters, Emma Peters and Gabrial Gray-Alejandro. He was an inspirational half brother to Dubi Gutierrez, Abraham Gutierrez and Virginia Gutierrez Pena. Tony was preceded in death by his father, Jilberto Gutierrez.

Tony loved music and touched the lives and talents of hundreds of musicians throughout Texas and Southwest region. Tony cherished the memories of having been a member of Reba McEntire's band as well as Tortilla Factory, Texas Time Machine, and Whistle Stix. He enjoyed the times he shared with Santana and band, Freddy Fender, Johnny Rodriguez and Little Joe. Tony felt honored that Los Lonely Boys included one of his songs on their documentary, "Cottonfields and Crossroads." He had special memories of chatting for hours with BB King and Jack Nicholson. Tony spent the last ten years playing at Mejor Que Nada and Fuentes Downtown.

Tony was very devoted to his Lord and Savior Jesus Christ with his favorite verse being Matthew 22:37 "love the Lord first." He blessed his fellow parishioners at St. Mary's Catholic Church with his music and voice. He loved his Cursillo brothers and sisters and prayed along with the Christian Community. He was very grateful to his Christian Breakfast Community for their prayers and support. Tony felt proud and honored to have been a member of the Knights of Columbus. Tony's request was that any donations be made to the Tony Gutierrez Cancer Treatment Fund (Bank of San Angelo), a children's cancer charity of your choice, and/or Hospice of San Angelo. Tony and family would like to thank Dr. Duarte, Dr. Cheneku, Dr. Lissanu, Dr. Studt , Dr. Chang, nursing staff at Shannon and Kristina Douglas with W.T. Rehab. in San Angelo and Dr. Conrad and Dr. Weinberg at MD Anderson in Houston, HOSA for their care during the last month of his life and to everyone who worked tirelessly to organized benefit concerts, golf tournaments and donation jars. The family wishes to express his heartfelt "Thank You" to everyone for their donations, prayers, words of kindness and hugs throughout his illness.

A Rosary will be held at 7:00 p.m. at St. Mary's Catholic Church, 7 W. Ave N, on Wednesday. Mass of Christian Burial will be on Friday at 10:00 a.m. at the church with interment following at Calvary Catholic Cemetery. Services have been entrusted to the Arnoldo Gutierrez Family.

I was so blessed to have known Tony and work with him for 6 years...singing at Mejor will always mean so much to me.. I remember the first time I met him...in the side room at Mejor.. I sang him Somewhere over the rainbow and from there he gave me the courage to shine. Tony is the first person to ever record me singing...I cried when I heard it...I also did my first photoshoot with Tony in a studio in San Angelo for a CD he was doing with me...he paid for it..he was always so giving..... Tony you will be so missed and loved forever. Thank you for who were and always will be to me and everyone else.

anyone who knew Tony please feel free to post memories and notes in this blog. This was written in memory of him. right below here click on "peeps who love me" God Bless

I just took that picture of me and Febe....that's our new "FARM" look....no makup except whats left over from the last time you put some on and nobody even cares if you wash your hair or not.... kinda relaxing actually....There is nobody out here but us... nobody to impress... so... I don't try anymore... Jason is stuck with me weather I am ugly or not so HA! hmmm.... apparently my nose ring decided to jump out at some point within the last few days....so I just spent 15 minutes trying to get another ring in the hole.... it hurt soooo bad... almost gave up and then POP it was pierced again.... not sure why I like it so much but I do.... gives my face a little exctra "sParKLe"
That's Jason right now working on photoshop....he didn't want me to take a picture so naturally I HAD to take one.... bet he wants to trade me in. hehehehe. I always tell him that I am just a pup and he need's to play with me. hehe OH! Febe learned how to shake....though she learned lay down and shake to close together so she gets them mixed up...but she is getting it all sorted out. It's so cute... she holds her little paw up and waits for you to shake with her. LOVE IT! She is sooooo smart! I just took that picture... she looks like a little white pig... hehehehehe...I will finish writing later... gonna help Jason make lunch.
OK now its 10pm and we are back on the computers where we spend most of our time....get's old sometimes but what else do we have to do? We both make the majority of our money from booking work online so here we sit minute after minute searching the web...myspace, craigs list, ModelMayhem, OneModelPlace....and many more..... work has been hard to come by lately which hurts us both a lot.... sometimes it's hard to keep your head up.
I found out today that one of my good friend's Courtney (not Bartlett) is prego with her secon baby and is soooo excited! I am really happy for her.... she and her husband want to have 4 kids... that's 36 months of her whole life pregnant...that's like 3 years! OMG! I DONT THINK I COULD DO THAT! My mom was pregnant for a total of 45 months! She was almost prego for 4 YEARS! HA I NEVER THOUGHT ABOUT THAT! GEEZ! Im not sure about having kids... part of me wants to and part of me wants to never even think about it.... I think the never even think about it part is winning so far. lol. When Karen had Grace it kinda helped me though...I got to help her in the delivery room and saw Grace be born...it wasn't as horrible as I thought it would be. I mean it's not something I would wake up in the morning and say "Hey I think I will give birth today," but the hurt looked like it went right away once that baby was in her arms.I'm sure that if I had to I would be a good mom, but I don't wanna have to do anything like that. I want to be ready and want it and decide to do it when it happens... I want to be able to give my baby an amazing life....they grow sooo fast. Grace holds a special place with me....Karen gave me such an amazing gift by letting me watch her come into the world...she is getting so big! I wish I was closer so I could watch her grow. Karen sends me pictures all the time though...but for now Febe is enough for me..and Jason and I are gonna have some whiiiiiiite babies...with red hair and freckles....ugh poor things.....and Jason has made it 34 years without getting married and having babies so I doubt he is in any kind of a hurry to start now. Pluss I have tons of cute pictures of Febe when she was a babyand I can look forward to her birthdays and stuff too.....which her 1st birthday is OCTOBER 16TH!!!! I can't wait!and getting married at this point isn't even an option so I try not to think about it much. I am sure you all know that I would like to get married, but one day it will happen and it will be forever and there will be a big dress and cake and crying family and yadda yadda yadda....I was foolish enough to rush into the thought of getting married to someone who shorty there after turned out to be an idiot so waiting doesn't sound like a terrible idea right now. So there are no plans for wedding cakes, babies or crying family anytime in the near future as of now....not sure how I ended up writing about this. hahaha... I tend to ramble I guess.
I hope to get ahold of one of my cloud images one of these days from stupid face Jason....I wana show off my first experience as a photographer...I think I did good...
Well I will stop wasting your time now!
Love ya lots!
to the moon and back even...
jessie

I found out that Tony "toke" Gutirez passed away this past Saturday after losing a battle with cancer. I found out from my long time friend Courtney Bartlett...Not sure I will be able to make the funeral which will be held this Friday morning at 10am in San Angelo....though I am saddened I am happy he is in a better place and doesn't hurt anymore. I hope that his family is well and are taking it ok.... Tony was a big part of my extended family for a very long time and I miss him already. Every time I hear Keeper of the stars I will think of you Tony G.
I haven't heard back from the S&S clothing company but I got picked as one of the 3 finalist to fly to NYC and be in a fashion calendar for Armani, and Versace. The guy is interested in the two other models more than me but one of them isn't available so if the other girl can't then it's all MINE and I really need it. Pluss I have never seen NYC so I would love to go. AND I would have some amazing tear sheets to add to my portfolio.... but I wont know for a few days....pray for me!
I applied at San Marcus River bar and Grill today with Jason for bartending job's and I actually think the guy was interested in hiring us both. Not as amazing and glamouros as New York but I need to make some money!!! I have been trying to find a job anywhere.....wal mart never called me hahaha..... oh well.... guess they don't want me.... we will call it....ugh..... they can't afford me. lol. I think I will apply/applie (never could spell) at STARBUCKS next..... if Alicia could do it then I can too become the next Sheppard Starbucks scientist. Eventually something has got to give... I have to get something somewhere.....I believe in Karma but I can't remember what I have done to deserve this...I miss my family and my friends.....TAYLOR!!! Gosh I miss Tay-Nay soooOOOOooooo much....he is my best friend in the whole wide world. I never could ask God for a better best friend...he is my strength....it was so hard leaving him.... He gave me a elephant piggy bank to remember him by and I named him Henna- he keeps watch over me.
Jason is bored and doesn't feel like working in photoshop.....poor baby. He is messin around on myspace doing nothing really....I love him.... he is such a kind hearted guy....funny too. He has been in the funniest mood all day....dry humor funny.
Well I am now chatting with the director of the company in NYC so I am gonna go....wish me luck.
love ya'll to the moon and back
jessie

SO I did audition for the fashion line today and I think it went really well....I mean I may not get it, but I feel like I had a strong audition. Pluss! I found out that I actually know the fashion designer!
His name is Jason B Steele and I am actually one of his models! Funny how things like that happen.
He wasn't at the audition himself as he is in San Angelo right now but I called him from the waiting area after I saw his name on the release forms. He is not in charge of casting so I may not get it, but isn't it funny that it's his line? I am so happy for him! If I get added to the line of models I will be doing a fashion show in Angelo followed by one in Austin. So you all will have to come and see me walk the walk in his clothes! I have an interview with a restaraunt in San Marcos tomorrow so wish me luck cause I NEED TO MAKE SOME DERN MONEY!
As for me that's about it for the day.....nothing too amazing I guess, but another day. I may get to visit my family this weekend if I can come up with gas money.... oh and Tay called me and told me a friend of mine from woofers had a heart attack so please everyone keep him in your prayers. His name is David and I spoke with him on the phone. He doesn't sound too good, but at least he was talkin....hope he is ok.
Love you all to the moon and back,
jessie


OH! JUST INCASE NOBODY CAN FIND IT!!! I have had several people ask how to leave comments on here... right below this will be a thing that says PEEPS WHO LOVE ME....I beleive you clock on that and can leave me a message. OK loveyabye

SooooOOOoooOOOOoooo I got some images back from photographer Joshua Leiberman from L.A. and I am pleased with them. There are a few that I don't care for but that's all in the love of art... people see things differently. He sent me the images from a clothing line that I am promoting so far. Josh and I shot a ton of different looks other than the clothing line and I am still waiting on those edits to come in. The designer is Henry Hall and he is sending me another shirt to shoot in today... I get FREE CLOTHES which rocks right now since I can't go shopping....the next shirt is pink and way cute. I didn't care to much for the teddy bear shirt. I got invited to audition for the SCIENCE & SANCTITY CLOTHING FASHION SHOOT & BUZZ VIDEO taking place in Austin Texas tomorrow. The audition requires this: We will be taking digital stills and conducting a video interview. This is a NEW fashion company. We encourage you to come dressed to kill and have your swimsuit on underneath your clothes to facilitate a quick change. If this is not possible, we will have a changing room. Please bring hard copies of your headshot, comp card, and resumes. Please bring a smile and a fun attitude, as we will be providing the same....none of which I have so I have to decide if I am gonna do it tonight... I hate competitions though. And you have to be 5"6 to be in this, but they did send me an invitation. Runway show models have to be 5"8 so they are already cutting down the requirements... I wonder if they know I am so short. I am thinkin' about doing it though...KATE MOSS was only 5"6 and she made it big in the runway world so maybe its up to be to kick down the standards again. I can do it I think!
Anywho... Jason is wanting to go to the studio in San Antonio today and shoot with a model... which shouldn't be hard to pick one. I need to work with more models MUA (makeup artist) for my portfolio. So maybe we will do that, but if I am gonna audition tomorrow in Austin I have a lot of work to do....fake tanner and hair and get all that junk together that they need and I don't posses. I am also going to submit to FORD MODELING AGENCY in New York sometime soon. It's scary but I wanna do it and if they like me they will fly me in for an interview! I also have to turn paperwork into Austin Actors Warehouse ASAP! Jason's uncle Wally Welch is an actor and his agent works there.... Wally reffered me so there is a good chance they will take me. I just watched one of his latest movie's where he played alongside Ashley Judd in Come Early Morning. He has also been in films, and TV shows such as "Comanche Moon", "Friday Night Lights" , The Return, Serving Sara, "Walker, Texas Ranger" , Cadillac Ranch, "Streets of Laredo", Boys Don't Cry, Rough Riders, and The Newton Boys. He is trying to get me in on a movie they are filming in Boerne Texas in a few months. I thnk that would rock! The first time I met him I was inside Jason's car watching Emily (Jason's neice) while Jason gave Wally his new headshots and he came up to the window while I was singing acting stupid and yelled "HEY!" he scared me to death! He is a really sweet guy and I hope to visit with him again soon.
Well I guess that's all for now... still no job but looking hard! I MISS EVERYONE! Thank you Eric for reading this! Means a lot!
this last image was the first shoot Jason and I ever did together.. months before we started dating... kinda cute to look back now and remember it.
LOVE YOU TO THE MOON AND BACK!
jesKa